Don’t go to a voodoo doctor, for pity’s sake. Go to a psychologist. You need counseling from a professional who knows what he or she is doing.

I didn’t think that I would ever fall “in love” or have sexual feelings for anyone after the awful relationship I was in. Unfortunately, the Universe had different plans for me. I was on this forum and met a couple with whom I shared views at least on a socio-political basis. I never thought about them because I was very depressed my life was a mess and my partner with whom I shared an apartment had 2 children was very abusive. It was a bad time…and then I had the dream of a man making sweet love to me and he left without me even seeing his face. It was maddening! I couldn’t believe it! I thought that those feelings were dead in me. I was in my late 30s by then and I wasn’t looking for that kind of love just a job, money and friendship-preferably female.
I let it go but a few months later it came back with a vengeance, the feelings of sexual thrill and freedom. I felt like a new person in these dreams/fantasies. And then I realize that it was all about that couple with whom I sometimes communicated on that forum!
I couldn’t believe it! I don’t go near married men that way! Besides they are never interested in the likes of me anyway! And I have never considered myself a lesbian or woman loving woman so why was I having these dreams and fantasies?
I wrote to him and told him half of the story, my feelings and dreams about him. He took his time to respond and flatly turned me down and insisted that one could not fall in love with another thru the internet!
It’s been 5 years now since this nightmare began and the feelings have intensified and so have the dreams and fantasies. I have tried to get help by writing to folks on the poly sites and calling various “experts”. but no one has responded in kind. I have no resources to get the help I need to get over this nightmare.
A Voodoo doctor in New Orleans promised he could make me normal again by erasing the feelings for $500.00 I have not been able to pay it.
I keep writing to the couple about my feelings sometimes sending pretty sexually explicit emails but they don’t respond. I feel like a mad woman, a crazy deranged pervert.
Has this ever happened to anyone? Any advice Goddess of Java? I wish I could buy you a cup. (hopefully soon when my finances get better.)
passionfruit and in need.

She is very conservative and has no thoughts of sex with others meanwhile I would have thoughts of having another woman in bed with me and helping around our home. My wife & I are in our 70s and I have a Penile Implant.